Honoring a baby who dies in pregnancy or infancy

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Christine Duenas lost her baby when she was 39 weeks and 3 days pregnant. She went into labor, but then something went terribly wrong. Before her baby could take her first breath, she died. Her daughter, Olive Lucy, whom Christine and her partner call Lucy, was stillborn.

"When the doctor confirmed that her heart had stopped beating, time stopped for a moment. I realized that life would never be the same for our family," Duenas says.

On Lucy's first birthday, Duenas took flowers to the cemetery where her daughter is buried. Then she and her partner, Watson Kawecki, went out to dinner with good friends, ate special cupcakes, and lit a candle.

Every year since, Duenas has celebrated Lucy's birthday this way. It's a difficult time, but honoring and remembering her daughter makes Duenas feel connected to Lucy and helps her handle the feelings that arise.

"I dread the days leading up to her birthday," says Duenas. "I stress that the cupcakes I want aren't going to be available or that I'll be running late to the cemetery. But it also gives me a new perspective on the year that has passed. I usually spend some part of her birthday reading my thoughts and journal entries from the past year."

October 15 is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, a day to honor and remember babies who die during pregnancy or as newborns. Participants around the world light a candle at 7 p.m. and keep it burning for at least an hour. Because of different time zones, the result is a wave of light that spans the globe.

The day also calls attention to the needs of grieving parents and creates awareness of pregnancy and infant loss. According to the official site, "Too many families grieve in silence, sometimes never coming to terms with their loss. Our goal is to help others relate to our loss … and to help families live with their loss, not 'get over' their loss."

Why remembering helps

"Finding ways to remember helps people gradually come to terms with the loss of a baby. It helps you remember, but also let go," says Helge Osterhold, a marriage and family therapist who coordinates bereavement services at the University of California, San Francisco's Benioff Children's Hospital.

Grieving can be especially difficult for parents who lost their child in pregnancy or at birth, Osterhold says, because they had so little time with the child who passed away.

"You don't have the memories of experiences together, but rather you have lost the hopes and dreams of what the future was supposed to hold. It's a rupture in your own life path that was just unfolding."

There's often an outpouring of support immediately after the loss of a baby, but with time, it dwindles, says Osterhold. Family and friends seem to go on with their lives and grieving parents often feel pressure from the people around them to move on and let go.

For the grieving parents, however, "moving on" isn't possible. Their lives have changed forever, touched by a child who lives on in their hearts. There's a real fear of forgetting or dishonoring that child. To cope with this and keep the child close, Osterhold tells parents to keep talking about their baby and keep their memories alive.

Crystal Theresa Zapanta says her greatest fear was forgetting about her son Calvin, who died when she was 18 weeks pregnant. "My time with him was so short, it could seem trivial and insignificant," she says.

"A lot of people may think I'm holding on too long," she says. "But I think it's important to understand that to women who have lost their baby, this is so much a part of who we are now, how we handle things, and how we see the world. You can't ignore who we've become."

Ways to honor a baby you lost

Create a blog or website

Besides celebrating Lucy's birthday, Duenas started a blog to remember her daughter. It includes written entries, photos taken in the hospital, a playlist of songs that remind her of Lucy (including "You Are My Sunshine," sung by Norman Blake, and "Seasons of Love," from the musical Rent), and links to advocacy groups that support legislation on stillborn research and parents' rights.

Zapanta also keeps a blog to honor her son Calvin.

Celebrate birthdays

Kara Jarrar lost her son Jordan when she was 22 weeks pregnant. It has been 15 months since Jordan died, and Jarrar says while family and friends around her often expect her to be done grieving, she isn't. On Jordan's first birthday she released blue and white balloons. "It made me feel good to celebrate his birthday, even in such a simple way," she says. "I plan on doing that every year."

Hold on to physical mementos

Because Jordan's birth was sudden, Jarrar didn't have time to prepare. She only has a few photos of her son and treasures the footprints taken at the hospital after she delivered. Not all parents get pictures, footprints, or other remembrances of their baby who passed away, but having something tangible can be a huge comfort.

As a way to support other moms like her, Jarrar plans to work with hospitals in her community to provide disposable cameras to parents who have just lost their baby. "Even if they aren't ready to look at the pictures right away, I know it can be a nice way to remember your baby," she says.

Create a virtual keepsake

Zapanta founded the site Calvin's Cupcakes, where she creates virtual remembrances for parents who have lost a baby.

Parents provide their baby's name, date of birth, and any special notes, and Zapanta creates a virtual cupcake that appears on the Calvin's Cupcakes site on the baby's birthday. There's no charge, and parents are welcome to copy the cupcake and put it on their own website or blog.

"It's my way of giving babies attention that they wouldn't normally get," says Zapanta. "That's what's hard in the baby-loss community. Some people seem afraid to mention our baby – they don't want to make us feel sad or upset. Our babies are always going to be in our lives and we are always going to be sad. But we want to talk about it."

She said the biggest reaction she gets from parents who visit her website is that they like to see their baby's name on the screen. One Mother's Day, Zapanta wrote in the sand the names of babies she knew had died and emailed photos to their moms. "One mom said, 'I haven't seen my son's name in seven years. It's so nice to see it,'" says Zapanta.

Find support online

BabyCenter's Community has many groups where grieving parents support each other, including Miscarriage, Stillbirth & Infant Loss Support; Bereaved Parents; Multiple MCs; and Multiple 2nd or 3rd Trimester Losses.

Parents also share photos and memorials in these two our site groups: Pregnancy & Infant Loss Memorials and In Memory.

You'll find more online communities and resources for grieving parents listed in the "More resources" section below.

Wear a reminder of your baby

Zapanta and her husband each wear a resin pendant with their son's ultrasound image on it. She made the pendants herself out of wooden tiles. Others make or order jewelry that features their child's name or birthstone.

Lucy's father, Watson Kawecki, wears a pin on his shirt or pocket every day in memory of his daughter.

A week after her son Jordan died, Kara Jarrar decided to get a tattoo on her arm of Jordan's footprints.

"There are angel wings on the sides and a halo above his name," says Jarrar. "I put it where everyone can see it. I like to talk about him. My tattoo has brought me the most comfort."

Help other parents suffering a loss

After losing her son during pregnancy, Michelle Ramirez began Juanito's Wish. The charitable group fills boxes with lotion, tissues, a book of quotes, and a teddy bear, and donates them to rural hospitals for parents who have suffered a loss. Other moms volunteer as grief counselors.

Get friends involved

Zapanta asks friends to take and post photos whenever they see Calvin's name on a street sign or book cover. On Calvin's birthday, friends of Zapanta and her husband made scrapbook pages. "We don't have his first steps or first words, but we have the people who care about us and care about him," Zapanta says.

Start a foundation or fundraiser

Tracey Deitzler lost her daughter, Kali, when she was 9 weeks old. She was born ten weeks premature with multiple birth defects. Deitzler honors her daughter's life with a fundraiser called For the Love of Kali. The money raised goes to various organizations that have helped Tracey and her family, and to the funeral home that provided their services for free.

Send a message

Duenas and Kawecki's daughter Lucy was born at 3:38 p.m. For the first year after she died, Kawecki sent Duenas a text message at 3:38 every day they were apart. "It would say, 'I miss you,' 'I miss her,' or just the word 'love.' Some days he sent a picture of the name 'Lucy' he'd seen out and about during his day," says Duenas.

"Even now, I know that at 3:38, he's looking at a clock," Duenas adds. "And sometimes he still sends a text."

Other ways parents remember and honor babies

  • Holding a memorial service or gathering – large or small – at a place of worship, in a park, or at home
  • Writing poetry or a story, published or unpublished
  • Creating art for themselves or to share
  • Creating music or a playlist
  • Making a collage or memory box
  • Planting a tree
  • Releasing butterflies
  • Putting statuary in a garden
  • Etching the baby's name on a stone and placing it outside
  • Engraving the baby's name on a brass plate and displaying it
  • Wearing jewelry that contains a keepsake, like a lock of their baby's hair
  • Lighting a candle
  • Celebrating Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day on October 15
  • Putting up a picture in a dedicated space
  • Making a donation to a charity in their child's name
  • Donating a book or some children's clothing to a children's charity in their community

More resources


Empty Cradle, Broken Heart: Surviving the Death of Your Baby by Deborah L. Davis

Healing a Parent's Grieving Heart: 100 Practical Ideas After Your Child Dies, by Alan D. Wolfelt


The M.I.S.S. Foundation
Crisis support and long-term aid for families after the death of a child

First Candle
Information and counseling services for grieving families


Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope
A place for women to share their experience of losing their baby, with photographs to illustrate that miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant loss affect women from all walks of life

Grief Net
An Internet community for people dealing with grief, death, and major loss

Compassionate Friends
More than 600 chapters that assist bereaved families and a variety of written and video resources

The Dougy Center
Support for children, teens, and their families grieving a death

Share Pregnancy and Infant Loss Support
Serves those whose lives are touched by the death of a baby through pregnancy loss, stillbirth, or in the first few months of life

Bereaved Parents of the USA
Self-help group that offers support, understanding, compassion, and hope to bereaved parents, grandparents, and siblings

A Place to Remember
Resources for those who have been touched by a crisis in pregnancy or the death of a baby

Grieve Out Loud
Support and resources for pregnancy and infant loss, including a pen-pal program that connects moms, dads, and grandparents who have lost babies to others with similar experiences

Watch the video: Pregnancy, Infant Loss Remembrance Day Marked (June 2022).


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